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threading_in_dreams) wrote2022-03-06 08:34 pm
threading_in_dreams) wrote2022-03-06 08:34 pm
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Too Close To The End blues
Whenever I get close to the end of a story my brain starts rebelling.
What happens is I just can't continue. It's like the plot starts falling apart. I question every single creative decision I made. I get caught up in different possible paths to the ending. I question the very choice of ending.
It's just 100% pure anxiety, that's what it is. And it's got its claws in me right now.
Thank the gods I went with posting this fic as I write it, otherwise I would never post it. At all. Because I'd be too busy thinking it is WRONG
Why can't I just chill out and do it wrong?
(while I can't tell you the actual reason, I have my suspicions and do not need anyone to tell me "take it to your therapist" tyvm)
What happens is I just can't continue. It's like the plot starts falling apart. I question every single creative decision I made. I get caught up in different possible paths to the ending. I question the very choice of ending.
It's just 100% pure anxiety, that's what it is. And it's got its claws in me right now.
Thank the gods I went with posting this fic as I write it, otherwise I would never post it. At all. Because I'd be too busy thinking it is WRONG
Why can't I just chill out and do it wrong?
(while I can't tell you the actual reason, I have my suspicions and do not need anyone to tell me "take it to your therapist" tyvm)